Gardens :)
Oh btw, yesterday went to Tesco Kajang with mommy, and saw a baby boy. Damn cute xD
Cute kannnnn :D
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Shopping :)
I love shopping, or should I say, girls love shopping :D HAHA, so yeah. Chinese New Year is around the corner, and I bought some dresses :) 300 bucks gone! opssie.
Lisa :D
Sunday, January 31, 2010
I am happy :)
Like what Xiau Wei mentioned in her blog.
认识你是一钟错，爱上你更是错上加错，
一年后，我终于去清醒了，
更加明白你是给不了我幸福的那个。
因为你最爱的，不是我，而是你自己。
I feel glad.
Lisa :)
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Thanks for all your concern :)
Im really glad that my friends care about me.
But no worries, Im learning to forgive and forget.
Let us forget all the unhappy things!
Lisa :)
Thursday, January 28, 2010
I had enough!
Stop blaming me for what has happened! It wasn't my fault, and I did nothing wrong. I didn't ask or talk anything about it, didn't mean I don't care about it, don't concern about it. Everyone is different, nobody is the same. Don't expect people to do things that you want people to do.
I had enough. This is not what Im supposed to face. Why do I have to face all this? Shouldn't I be the one who is celebrating because of the PMR results? Why is all this happening to me? Just few days after the PMR results announced, everything just changed!
Is this my fault? Im just 16, just a normal form 4 student. And this is not the life that I should have, I should enjoy my teenagers life happily. God knows how much do I want to solve the problem. But I can't! Im just helpless. And now, you're blaming me of his fault.
I did nothing wrong, its just the way we manage things is different. How many times do I have to explain all these? Bad things are happening on me. I seriously hate 2010. Just a month, but tons of problems appeared. What can I do?
Can anyone show me the right direction? Its not that I don't want to share, but its just because Im speechless. What can I say when all these happened? Im frustrated, seriously frustrated. Why must they drag me in this problem?
Lisa.
I had enough. This is not what Im supposed to face. Why do I have to face all this? Shouldn't I be the one who is celebrating because of the PMR results? Why is all this happening to me? Just few days after the PMR results announced, everything just changed!
Is this my fault? Im just 16, just a normal form 4 student. And this is not the life that I should have, I should enjoy my teenagers life happily. God knows how much do I want to solve the problem. But I can't! Im just helpless. And now, you're blaming me of his fault.
I did nothing wrong, its just the way we manage things is different. How many times do I have to explain all these? Bad things are happening on me. I seriously hate 2010. Just a month, but tons of problems appeared. What can I do?
Can anyone show me the right direction? Its not that I don't want to share, but its just because Im speechless. What can I say when all these happened? Im frustrated, seriously frustrated. Why must they drag me in this problem?
I just can't stop crying.
Lisa.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
This is just like us.
It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching
For any sign of the ones he used to love
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left)
And this time I think you'll know
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one (but herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is hurt
And this time I think you'll know
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
(There is more to know)
We're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
(So tell me)
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
You're not alone
You're not, your not alone
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching
For any sign of the ones he used to love
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left)
And this time I think you'll know
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one (but herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is hurt
And this time I think you'll know
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
(There is more to know)
We're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
(So tell me)
You're not alone
There is more to this I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
You're not alone
You're not, your not alone
By Saosin ~ You're not alone.
Lisa.
The truth is.
The truth is, Im not living a happy life now. Yeah, I enjoy being in school, because there are friends, who will tell some jokes and laugh with you. With the packed timetable, I don't have the chance to think anything other than my academic, because the time doesn't allow me to do so.
About the studies, I am pretty fed up with it. It feels like, the motivation to study has faded. Yeah, I tried to concentrate in class, but its pretty hard for me, to finish up my homework. I just don't know why. I promised to work harder this year, but Im afraid, I can't do so anymore.
About the family, friends who are close to me, should know whats happening. Even though, I didn't tell you guys in detailed, but you should know how do I feel. No words could describe my feelings. Im just, heart broken. As the one I love, has done something really wrong.
About the love life, what can I say? The ex lover has came back, and I wonder what's my decision. It messed me up, I really need a second to breathe. All the hurts that he left, does he deserves a second chance?
He came, and he left. Now, he's back. What should I do? Undeniable, feelings are still there. Memories just can't be deleted from my mind. One side, I would love to keep him by my side, be with him, and share my problems or happiness with him.
On the other side, I couldn't forget those hurts that he caused. All the mistakes, all the broken promises. Everything is in a mess. I feel confused. I just don't know what should I do. I feel so helpless. Everything is just in a bad condition.
Most importantly, I want my family problem to be solved, before Chinese New Year. Oh God, give me some strength, to continue my life and face those challenges bravely. I love all of you.
Lisa.
About the family, friends who are close to me, should know whats happening. Even though, I didn't tell you guys in detailed, but you should know how do I feel. No words could describe my feelings. Im just, heart broken. As the one I love, has done something really wrong.
About the love life, what can I say? The ex lover has came back, and I wonder what's my decision. It messed me up, I really need a second to breathe. All the hurts that he left, does he deserves a second chance?
He came, and he left. Now, he's back. What should I do? Undeniable, feelings are still there. Memories just can't be deleted from my mind. One side, I would love to keep him by my side, be with him, and share my problems or happiness with him.
On the other side, I couldn't forget those hurts that he caused. All the mistakes, all the broken promises. Everything is in a mess. I feel confused. I just don't know what should I do. I feel so helpless. Everything is just in a bad condition.
Most importantly, I want my family problem to be solved, before Chinese New Year. Oh God, give me some strength, to continue my life and face those challenges bravely. I love all of you.
Lisa.
By My Side :)
Dear God here's my letter
Writing to you cause my life has gotten a lot better
Got heart but I didn't sweat it cause I know you'll be there for me no matter the weather
I just wanna say thanks for being there for me everyday
And when I got taken away wanted to get away
You made me stronger to continue the fight
You made me give up the life I had on the streets
Gets rough and I've been on the hold on
Never questioned that you're the one that I call Lord
And just wanna show you I appreciate
Thank you for the rest no matter what it is.
Writing to you cause my life has gotten a lot better
Got heart but I didn't sweat it cause I know you'll be there for me no matter the weather
I just wanna say thanks for being there for me everyday
And when I got taken away wanted to get away
You made me stronger to continue the fight
You made me give up the life I had on the streets
Gets rough and I've been on the hold on
Never questioned that you're the one that I call Lord
And just wanna show you I appreciate
Thank you for the rest no matter what it is.
Lisa :)
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Afterall, Im not good, at all.
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The night are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss that pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry that tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my
Un-break my heart
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....
*Im not good, at all. Maybe I been laughing around, and fooling around. But when things settled down, everything seems to be so unfriendly. They are stabbing knives in my heart, and twisted it 360 degree. And all I feel is just, pain.
My heart is broken into pieces. Im so speechless. I've no idea what's happening. As I been hearing different stories from the third parties, and the person who caused all these mess, has ran away without any explanation. Even when I asked, he just didn't answer me :(
I hope that this is just a dream, everything isn't true. I hope that time can travels back to just 2 years ago, so all the mistakes wouldn't happened. I hope that, everything I heard, is just some jokes, that someone will stand in front of me, and telling me that all these aren't true.
My life is in a messed. Something that I didn't want it to appear in my life, has finally appeared too. Someone that I've been trying to find many excuses for him, just to convince myself, to not believe the facts, and just, believe him. But the truth has just appeared, some truth that I didn't want to hear.
I cried so many times, but there's no more U-turning. And I blame myself, for not doing anything. Its not that, I don't want to, but just, I can't. I can't do anything. When will the nightmare ends? I really wonder when will my smile replace my tears. I don't want to cry anymore.
No words could describe how I feel.
Lisa.
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The night are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss that pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry that tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my
Un-break my heart
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....
*Im not good, at all. Maybe I been laughing around, and fooling around. But when things settled down, everything seems to be so unfriendly. They are stabbing knives in my heart, and twisted it 360 degree. And all I feel is just, pain.
My heart is broken into pieces. Im so speechless. I've no idea what's happening. As I been hearing different stories from the third parties, and the person who caused all these mess, has ran away without any explanation. Even when I asked, he just didn't answer me :(
I hope that this is just a dream, everything isn't true. I hope that time can travels back to just 2 years ago, so all the mistakes wouldn't happened. I hope that, everything I heard, is just some jokes, that someone will stand in front of me, and telling me that all these aren't true.
My life is in a messed. Something that I didn't want it to appear in my life, has finally appeared too. Someone that I've been trying to find many excuses for him, just to convince myself, to not believe the facts, and just, believe him. But the truth has just appeared, some truth that I didn't want to hear.
I cried so many times, but there's no more U-turning. And I blame myself, for not doing anything. Its not that, I don't want to, but just, I can't. I can't do anything. When will the nightmare ends? I really wonder when will my smile replace my tears. I don't want to cry anymore.
Lisa.
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